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I held Jared's hand...... ha. I KNOW! You all are wondering why we move so stinking FAST! Sorry ;) ha.... yeah 4 months later.... WE HELD HANDS! On thursday night. and I actually made the main move because he's a little slow but hey its ok. I'll let him kiss me. ;) I won't be making THAT move.

Little help from someone?

Alright you all.... All 3 of you that read this.... ha. I need someone to tell me if it is inappropriate to hug someone for 2 hours. Is that like, inappropriate? I have a roommate here that says it is ha, and I am the LAST person that would want to do something inappropriate ya know? So as silly as this question is, I'm really serious. Is it?

Jared and I hugged from 9:45 last night to 11:47. He told me he wasn't going to let go until I did, and uh, well..... ha. I didn't want to, so I didn't. And we enjoyed wonderful conversation and he was absolutely adorable and kissed my forehead and and AND! OH this boy is just sweet to me. He totally tried to kiss me and I got scared! He had my face in his HANDS! And he was totally going to but I got freaked out and kinda put my head down a little and so he kissed my forehead instead. Oh man. AHHHHDHAKDJFHALDK! I am way toooo scared and not good with this whole dating, cute stuff.

Sweet things.

Oh I saw the most adorable thing today. I was at the gym doing about 15 minutes on the bike just to loosen my knee up before swimming laps and this adorable old old couple comes in together and start working out of the machines. I proceeded to watch them for about 10 minutes and they just helped each other on and off each machine, and back onto another one. about 45 minutes later when I was leaving the gym, they were leaving as well. They walked out to their car and I witnessed this most ADORABLE ACT! This sweet elderly man had his wife's hand in his and walked her right around to the passenger side, opened her door for her, got her settled into the seat, leaned over and kissed her then shut the door and walked around and got into his seat. OH MY GOODNESS I about lost it. It was adorable. I hope that I can have a husband who will go to the gym with me well into our 70's and 80's if possible and work out with me, then open my door for me and kiss me! All because he just wants to. So sweet.

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Oh boy. I guess Jared and I are dating? Yeah... I'm so nervous about it. The fear is kicking in... anyway, we enjoyed a nice Family home evening tonight together and he had his arm around me and made sure I was warm outside around the fire. He's a sweet thing. :)

I am so grateful for my family. For my friends. For the gospel. HEY! If anyone wants a good laugh, and some spiritual lifting, WATCH President Monson's BYU devotional address called "your choice". It's so funny and great. You have to watch it though because it's his face expressions and tone of voice that is so funny.

"You feel good in my arms."

YEAH! Uh huh... yep. That is what Jared said to me last night as he was hugging me. "You feel good in my arms." AND he kissed the top of my head. AHHH. Ha. He's adorable. I am just quite frankly head over for this handsome boy! He's too nice to me.

This Sunday was amazing. Really everything about it was. We had 3 incredible sacrament talks on prayer and receiving revelation and answers to our prayers, then a Sunday school lesson on miracles, and a R.S. lesson on the importance and eternal principle of work. A girl in our ward named McKay gave the lesson and really it was absolutely wonderful. She just had a visible love and testimony of the Book of Mormon, and the gospel and it radiated. She really taught it so well and I just got a lot out of every lesson, talk, and class I was in.

After church Jared and his cousin and his fiance all came over to my apartment for some checkerboard cake that we made Saturday night for fun. Anyway, they didn't stay long...just came over for some cake and left but Jared text me afterward and asked me if he could see me again so I went over to his aunts house where he's staying at 6:15 and I stayed there till 9:15. We played 4 games of ping pong. ALL of which I lost but I won't lose all of them next time. Then I asked him if he'd play some piano for me because I have heard he's real good but he denies it... so, it turns out he is really good. He plays a gorgeous version of If you could Hie to Kolob. It was beautiful. THEN... his family all came in and while his Aunt played, we all sang a few hymns.
His hometeachers came at 8:30 so I told him I'd get out of his hair and see him later but he told me to stay so I got hometaught twice today. It was great. ANYWAY... we went to Ward Prayer at 9:30 and then I took him home. (he has no car here, and I am borrowing Joshua's) and THAT is when he told me I felt good in his arms. WHaaa! So sweeeet. Then he text me later and told me his shirt smelt really good because it smelt like me ha. too funny. He's so good.

***oh! For anyone who wondered how my date went on Friday.... ha. We got a flat tire on the way to Sandy for dinner which was an hour away from Provo. So funny... anyway, I'm not exactly interested in the guy but I got free dinner out of it. (That's awful.)

BAGHHGHHGHH!! February 16, 2011

Today was an absolutely SPLENDID DAY. Work went well this morning. I was so sleepy that I wanted to come straight home and take a nap but I thought to myself....uh, NO. If I do that, then I will be incredibly groggy and unproductive today... SO... I thought to myself, well I need to get my exercise in and do my scripture study so I walked to the temple and did my study which ...may I just say, was wonderful. WONDERFUL! Read Mormon 9:28,31,48. I love them. They are such good principles and lessons for us to learn and remember. "...Ask with a FIRMNESS UNSHAKEN that ye will yield to no temptation, but that ye will serve the true and living God." Do you just LOVE THAT?! I love the gospel! I love the truth that we find in the scriptures.

Alright... I know that we all have times when we just feel like we wish we could be better. We recognize our weaknesses and imperfections but it is frustrating because we wish that we could just fix it! Well read verse 31. It's mainly the second half but it's such a great principle. We have weaknesses and imperfections to LEARN and to GROW from them. To become better! I love it.

Now... for the absolutely SPECTACULAR PURPOSE of this post.............................................. Dominique from Michaels called me today! I have a job interview on FRIDAY! I am so grateful. Here's the thing... she wants me to work every other Sunday and I told her I really would like to have Sundays off but she said we can talk about it. So please pray that she will just have a good feeling about me, and know that I will work my HINEY off for her and that she will just hire me without working Sundays.

**Oh, and I got asked out on a date tonight for Friday night. Yahooo...... :/ It's going to be fun because I am making a point to NOT hate it. ha.

It snowed hard tonight. It was beautiful to watch. I love it. Jared and I had a good conversation tonight that I think made us both go, hmm....we are NOT on the same page in this relationship at all! ha. anyway, we'll talk about it sometime soon and clear up the confusion.

Yesterday............Looooong day.

Oh yesterday was a long day, but a productive one. I had work in the morning. I went and cleaned the office, then directly after that I went and met this sweet little Hispanic lady at a huge office complex and she and I cleaned this huge 3 story office complex for about 3 hours. By this point, the right bunion in my foot and of course my knee were throbbing. I wanted to go home and just take a nap, but while Joseph and Mindy Petramalo are gone, I am covering some of their "waste removal" jobs. A.K.A. Poop scooping. So... I had 2 jobs to do. One only took about a half hour and the other one took me almost an hour and a half because it is a little more difficult to pry dog poop out of hard snow. Ha, BUT... I am still grateful for the opportunity to do it. I left there and went and bought a headlight for Josh's car because it's out and I took it to Jacob's and we replaced it but he broke the new bulb so.... we postponed it till we got another new one.

Ok here's the good stuff.... Jared text me and said, "Hey, do you have a minute, or 30?" ha...he's adorable. SO.... We met at the temple and just took a good walk around the grounds and just enjoyed the beautiful temple, the bright moon and the stars in the sky. It was a little cold and don't any of you think that I under dressed because I wanted him to wrap me in one of his wonderful hugs because I had gloves and a big jacket on but was still quivering a little bit. We'd been outside for about an hour at this point. He kept asking me if I was alright. I told him that yes I was a little cold but that I was fine. FINALLY.....he opened up his jacket and said, "Get over here" and wrapped me up in his hug that I am a little bit addicted to. It was adorable. Needless to say, we continued chatting as we stood in a wonderful Jared Tarah hug for a good 15 minutes. Seriously.... ha. He's adorable and makes me happy! He text me later that night ha and told me that I smelt good. He said his shirt smelt like me. ha.... cutie pa tootie. Tell you what. ANYWAY, OH OH OH! Funny story. While Jared and I were at the temple, after we had walked around a bit, we kinda stopped at this one spot and that's where we stayed for about 45 minutes. We'd been there for about 30 minutes already and suddenly a man, with a black beanie hat pops up out of a very small little space right between the wall of the temple and the bush. SERIOUSLY. I am not kidding! He just stood right up and walked off. He was probably 15 feet away from us and had been the entire time! HA! I laughed so hard! Jared and I kind of made a joke of it the rest of the night. ha....and we decided that he was probably there taking a nap or something and when we walked up, this poor guy thought we would just stop, enjoy the view and keep going! ha, but NO...! We stopped there and stayed for 45 minutes! Ha, so this poor man was probably just thinking, oh gosh, ok...this is going to look so bad ha but just walked up and left. Ya'll should have been there. It was hysterical! Anyway, such a great night.

A sinless sacrifice...

"His precious blood He freely spilt; His life he freely gave, A sinless sacrifice for guilt, A dying world to save." Today the sacrament song in church was 195, How Great the Wisdom and the Love. I paid close attention to the words of this song today and I am so grateful for the Sacrifice of our friend, and brother, and Redeemer Jesus Christ. A sinless sacrifice... he had done no wrong. I just can't believe it. I can't believe that he can do something so great for YOU and for ME...because he loves us that much. It's incredible. I am so grateful for that sinless sacrifice that was made.

I am so uncertain about my entire life. I am stressed out about my near future and I just want to figure it all out.

It's a new week. I hope I get a call back on a job tomorrow. Oh my goodness, please!

Don't worry. BE HAPPY!

WHAA! I am so happpy! Today was a great day. Other than the fact that my knee hurts. Bad. I think that when I fell the other day, I might have re torn my ACL. I am so scared about it. But I know everything will be ok.

Today I helped Joshua move his whole room into the other side of the basement at Gma's and then moved Jacob and Rebekah in and we rocked out to Pandora. I listened to a couple songs that quite frankly just made me HAPPY. Listen to "happy" and "on the bright side" by the artist, never shout never. They will make you happy. :) OH OH, AND "Don't worry, be happy" by Bobby Mcferrin.

Joshua, Jacob, Rebekah and I all went to listen to Amy Whitcomb's band play tonight and oh my goodness. I was inspired. She's incredible. Her band's name is "The Whits" so... watch for them. I truly think they will be big someday soon!

I went over to Jared's house to look at his family pictures that he just got...Mary Petramalo (a good friend of mine) took them for his family and I was wanting to see them. They turned out SO GOOD! I loved them. Jared makes me so happy. ha....so happy. And when he hugs me, he lingers....he just hugs for a long time and I love it!

I MISS MESA. I miss everyone there. I love you all!

Alright. I am really getting into my janitor job. It's great. I am going to be the most meticulous, anal mother when it comes to my children cleaning their rooms. I am totally learning a ton of awesome cleaning techniques. It's great. I moved into my new apartment yesterday and my roommates are a little messy so when they all left today, I cranked out the vacuum, clorox, toilet cleaner and went to BUSINESS! It was great. Anyway, hmm. I talked with Rebecca Hitchcock most the day today and I am just so excited to move to Idaho. It's going to be so stinking fun.

I should be doing homework... and Im not. I have way tooo many clothes and I need to do something about it. It's awful. Joshua is sick. Poor guy. I went over and made him a parfait for breakfast. He slept till like 11 though which was so good for him! Poor guy. My roommates are all very interesting. I have never lived with anyone other than Sarah and its just strange. But, not bad. It'll just take getting used to. I put pictures up in my room today, and made some cards to put in the mail.

My knee is definitely not feeling the way it was before I fell. I am nervous about it.AHH... ugh.

***Moroni is such a STUD! He totally rocks. Read Mormon 9:1-6....I love it.

Mikelle, Jillian, Kim, Abby....this post is for you.

Alright Ladies, goodness gracious you're going to fall right in love with both these songs, and I actually plan to add more to this list. BUT...for now, listen/watch these. :)

***By the way I think that you're all hilarious and fantastic.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zcEG72N5No8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uij5s69iEjs

"I'm walking on sunshine... whoaa oh oh oooooh!"

Can anyone guess why I am walking on sunshine?! Besides Sarah... Yes. I love life. I love the trials we go through. I love learning from them... I love the people I know who inspire and lift me. I am so happy to be alive and grateful for EVERY good thing. Actually, you know what, I am grateful for every bad thing as well because the good things wouldn't be good if it weren't for the bad.

Life is Ridiculously Enjoyable.

So...tonight I got paid $40 to grade a lady's papers for her and I am so grateful for that. While I was grading them, Jared text me and asked what I was doing tonight, so I told him and he said he had homework that was due but that the internet was down at his house and he wanted to know if he could come use mine. Uh..... yes. Absolutely you can do that Jared. :) Anyway, so we both worked on our things together tonight and he gave me the most adorable hug tonight. 2 of them actually, but let me just explain to you what he did. AH its too cute. SO... besides the fact that I am addicted to his hugs...they are so delightful, he does this cute thing where he puts his hand across the back of my head... and hmm...I don't know how to describe it without making it sound a tad bit creepy but its NOT CREEPY, at all! It's adorable and I love it. Anyway, it was a good night. I am grateful to have him as a friend. He really does a lot for me.

Anyone reading this that wants to, would you keep my knee in your prayers? I had a fall today. It snowed last night and I slipped all the way down the stairs and my knee bent into a position that it really should not go into. It hurt a lot...and has been real weak all day. I am just afraid that it may have re torn and I am just praying that it isn't. I would love any prayers in that behalf.

***I have a new hobby. Leaving Sarah voicemails. It's so great. ha. We talked on the phone 4 times today. Hmm....that seems wrong, but I LOVED it. SOOO MUCH. I love her. Sarah. I love you.

I JUST want to donate PLASMA!

:( I can't donate plasma. Knee surgery ruins everything. I could have made 50 bucks a week doing that. Oh well... I guess I'll learn something from all this. Maybe I am supposed to learn patience in my afflictions (if I can even call this an affliction or trial in comparison to what other people face). The Lord will provide some other way for me to earn a living.

Rain=happiness

Yeah... it rained here in the beautiful city of Provo today. It was delightful. Josh and I began our day with a lovely walk. I went 3 miles briskly today. WHEW! Then came home and did some fun stuff... pushups, triceps dips, ab stuff.... all I can do really. Anyway.... it was a great start to the day. Did my scripture study, made joshua and I a yummy, healthy breakfast. One sided egg sandwich, with a grapefruit. YUM!

THEN...the productiveness begins. I got my lease all taken care of at Raintree, did the paperwork at the Janitorial place, went and bought a book for Joshua at the byu bookstore. He gave me his credit card to buy it but they wouldn't take it with no ID and they didn't believe my name was Joshua...so... I had to buy it. I decided to just give it to him as a birthday gift. It was the book, "300 questions that LDS couples should ask each other before getting married". Then I went home, made lunch for Joshua and I. Left to pick up a few applications, and to get some information on donating plasma. I went and talked to the manager at Michaels and I REALLY hope to get a job with them. Its a full time position which is just what I need, and I am just hoping hoping hoping! I also made an appointment for tomorrow to donate plasma. WOO. Yeah. Oh, and I dropped a thank you card off in the mail for Jana and Bret Mitchell. Kind of a cool story... it's kind of personal, but eh...no one reads this anyway ha. So this morning when I was walking, sometimes I just pray in my head the whole time I walk and this morning was one of those days. I told Heavenly Father that I wanted to be able to hear the spirit, and follow promptings that I get. I told him that today I was only going to listen to good music if any at all, and that I was going to try extra hard to recognize when the spirit is trying to tell me something. I also pleaded with him that I might be able to maybe find someplace that was hiring, or just some sort of way that I can make money. SO...today I was driving along running my errands and just saw the plasma place. I had no idea it was there, but I saw it, and stopped and went in. SO...there is some kind of income. A tiny bit, but something. Oh by the way, all day long I listened to the Mo-tab in the car. I was literally rocking out to High on a Mountain Top. It was awesome. Anyway, so I get back into the car to leave the plasma place, and its real cold, windy, raining, and slushy and slippery because it had snowed last night... and while I was loving the rain, I was freezing and did not have my jacket on...and had my sandals on and wanted to go home. But...I had the impression that I should drive around the corner to the shopping center that was right there. I didn't know which stores were there but I felt like I ought to go and just see if anyone was hiring. So...I did. And Michael's was the store I went into. There was a big sign that said, NOW HIRING, so I asked to speak to a manager and we spoke and I filled out an application and I really hope to hear back from her soon.

I really continue each day to see the hand of the Lord in absolutely everything that I have, everything I do, everything that I want to be. I am so grateful for the goodness of our Heavenly Father. He truly does take care of us and I certainly do know that I WILL find something here.

***DEVENEY emailed me tonight. It made me really happy.... :( but it made me miss them all so much.

I am so HAPPPPY!

Oooooo Hooo hooo! I have so much to be grateful for! My goodness. So, my day yesterday was extraordinary. I made $32 grading some papers for a teacher for 3.5 hours. Geometry tests. Yuck! BUT...I made some money! YEAH! Anyway, I also heard back from the Janitorial place and I got the job Monday through Friday for about 4 hours every night cleaning restrooms in the city library and a couple other city buildings. ALSO... Joseph and Mindy Petramalo will be out of town for 3 weeks and he wants me to take his poop scooping job on Tuesdays and Wednesdays. Yes, I will be scooping Dog's poop all day and you're absolutely right! I have NEVER been so excited to clean bathrooms and scoop poop. It's such a BLESSING!

Joshua and I got up and exercised. Wasn't quite as cold as the day before... only 6 degrees this time. ;) GREAT walking weather. ha...funny story. We were walking and we're in like a light sweater and some shorts yeah? And we pass these 2 sweeet older guys walking and they have hats, ear muffs, and big POOFY jackets on ha. We pass them and one says, "Hmm, you think we're a little over dressed?" Hahaha, I just turned around and was like, "NO! We're freeeezing!" Ha, it was great. Anyway, I got to go to the temple and it was great. I think that next week I am going to try to do some baptisms. We'll see if my knee can do it and if not, I'll do something strange to improvise. Anyway.... OH YES. Last bit of info... Last night, (Thursday) Jared text me and I happened to be at my cousins house making cookies with her. So... I asked him if he was in the mood for something sweet. So we brought him some butterscotch oatmeal cookies. It is Karli Giles recipe that I got from her and oh my HEAVENS! They're so good and turned out great. I need to thank her. Anyway, I got a big hug from Jared. GOSH he is such a handsome man! :) Dear Jared, I am going on a mission very soon. BUT...don't worry, I'll be back and I would love for you to wait for me. and by then, I will be ready for you to propose to me if you would like to. Then we can have adorable children and be so happy the rest of our lives. Let me know how you feel about this plan. Sincerely, Tarah.

ha. Jared and I are just friends right now for anyone who has not been informed of that yet. Anyway, I had a great day. and today will be one as well!

AHHH!

I am going on a mission. AND I'M SO EXCITED! I will start my papers in April as SOOON as I can. I have such a desire to go and to learn and to grow and to serve the Lord! I just want it to come soon.

Today was a good day. I need to find a job though. So bad.